Thanks for the help guys, i'll definitely try some of your suggestions,
@Voolf sorry you're confused by my question i realize that most people have issues drawing perfectly straight lines but i work as a carpenter, straight lines to me really aren't much of an issue it's getting away from them for me that my mind says "wait a minute" aha, i guess uniformity and constants are more my thing whereas people with more creative minds have a hard time abiding to that? (phrasing that as a question since i'm not really sure i'm no psych major)
@GLS thanks for the tips, i think the main issue i have is letting things flow, i'm not necessarily in the habit of not having full control over my environment so it's a bit hard of me to let things go and follow along.